It was a rude awakening and not a great start to our new normal lockdown this week. Up early on Monday morning to make Jonny a packed lunch with a lump in my throat and the cat brought in a bird. A lifeless feathered friend which she thought was everything I wanted and which of course couldn’t be further from the truth. A bit like how the easing of lockdown feels to me. Other people, namely our government, thinks I should want normality to resume and while that would, in theory, be a great gift, it is actually just terrifying. And people are now complaining about teachers wearing PPE and looking too clinical as if they literally don’t care about being as careful as possible and would far rather risk another wave to get back to normal. I mean, the ultimate in selfish behaviour!
I’ve felt this week like the beginning of week one when I was angry and couldn’t work out in my head how to deal with the situation. Back then I decided by mid week that we had to make the best of it, make it fun where we could so it was less scary, do everything we could to be safe and to keep the children away from any fear. I have employed the same mentality. I am not happy that Jonny has been out of the house at school and I don’t think it is necessarily safe, but we have been and will continue to be as mindful and as safe as we possibly can using the techniques we know and we will continue to make the best of the situation. It’s the other people I’m mainly worried about.
Thankfully he wasn’t needed in much and for that I am grateful!
As far as I am concerned my children will be home now until September at least and we will cope with home schooling because we can and we will have fun. And hopefully Daddy will be here as much as he can be – next week he will be working from home too, phew.
This week of thinking about adjustment was not my favourite because I am so unsure of its necessity but we are working out how to do this as a tight family – we have that strength on our side and I’m using it! As Jonny was home more than he was in school it’s still a bit theoretical so I am going to try and feel the fear and do it anyway, that’s what they say to do right?!