Dearest My Little Loves – Happy Easter 2019!
Dearest My Little Loves,
It’s finally spring and we are all looking around the corner to sunshine and sand with glimpses in the clouds every so often alerting us that it’s nearly time for our faces to glow.
It’s been another race from the start line to get to the end of another term and yet again I’m astounded how fast time goes. Florence you are about to tread the boards in your part of Marta Von Trapp in the Sound of Music. Jimmy, you’ve just gone off on your first beaver camp without a backward glance and despite me making Daddy not have even a drop of wine so that we could race to pick you up if you got home sick, it is morning and we haven’t heard a peep. Raffie, you’re making wonderful kissing sounds as you pucker up for affectionate moments and doing a whole host of other glorious things that make our hearts sing.
Babies change so drastically that it’s hard to keep track of the new things Raffie is doing, teeth that pop through and new recognitions. He loves to go to play group on a Wednesday morning but doesn’t enjoy the singing just like his big brother used to protest against. He enjoys Gymboree classes getting excited even as we walk up to the door. And he is so confident at climbing yet he won’t jump off the blocks. Just as he is confident at Gymboree he is confident at home but with a contrast that he doesn’t like to be parted from me. It’s fine. I don’t like to be parted from him either! He headed into this holiday with a sickness bug (of course) but I think it was just a 24 hour thing. I hope so because I’m not going anywhere without him and we have mega fun planned for us all!
And I don’t like to parted from any of them truth be told and don’t want to do anything without the lot. Especially Jimmy right now as he has struggled immensely these past few weeks knowing his teacher, whom he loves dearly, was leaving. He had her for reception, year one and this year so far so his relationship with her is very special. The news has manifested in quite angry outbursts and a lot of upset. He said it hurts in his chest and I told him about heartbreak and missing someone. For him this was his first exposure and it’s been brutal but because she is so wonderful she held his, and the whole class’s, hand the whole way through. On the last day he said to me in the morning ‘Mummy, I’m so tired of being angry and sad, I will try to be happy today’ and he did. He did. He’s so brave. He made it until we left the classroom door after a very emotional assembly to say goodbye to her where I made a little speech on behalf of all the parents and then he crumbled in my arms. We medicated with McDonalds but I’d say he’s not felt himself since. He will get there and I’m hoping when I pick him up from beaver camp at lunch time he will have had such fun that he’s a different boy.
Florence said ‘I miss Jimmy’ which was unexpected. They love each other but she usually relishes a bit of time getting us to herself yet she is so empathetic and wise beyond her years, that she knows he’s in a pickle and wants to care for him. His bravery at not wanting to be angry and sad anymore came from her as she let him sleep in her bed the night before, he’s been in mine for days before that, and she pep talked him into a new way of thinking. She is so good and kind and lovely and working so hard on this show. I couldn’t be prouder of her. People ask me if it’s hard with three and I always say not if you have a Florence. She is no trouble, looks after herself, makes her bed, gets herself dressed, makes her own breakfast… Does all her homework on her own. She is determined too and once she sets her mind on something my goodness she goes for it. She wanted a Blue Peter badge so she worked her socks off and lo and behold… She got one – clever girl! She also genuinely wants to help with anything to do with Raffie. I hate that today when I get my biggest boy back I have to deliver her to rehearsals and wait until this evening until I can have my three is the magic number trio in one place but we’ve got the whole of Easter stretching ahead for lots of time thankfully.
And of course I have plans. Many plans. And the rehearsals will take up space .The show too. But I’m looking forward to concentrated time with my most favourite people in the world – and that includes Jonny and my Mum!
Happy Easter!
Love me.
Xxxx
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