This was half term week which thankfully meant no struggling with school work – I am very definitely wanting my children at home and not at school but the school work we have to do at the kitchen table absolutely fills me (and them) with dread! And the thought of next week when Daddy is back at school mostly and I am 100% doing it on my own is even more reason to feel heavy about it.
A break from the school work, even knowing that next week it was going to be a whole lot harder, has simply been lush. We really have felt like we are on holiday and the sun shining has made it all the better. Pool time and walks and fun as a family is all we need and Jonny ad I have noted once more, just like we tend to always do when we go on holiday, that we get on better when we spend concentrated time together than during the every day of normal life. Isn’t that funny, but rather lucky for us!
So we have had a nice week but the impeding doom of worry about Jonny being in a classroom has been getting to me and though trying to push to the back of my mind it has felt a bit like a countdown. He won’t be in full time as has lots of college work because when lockdown happened his course had to change. He can’t be doing two things at once and also there will be a bit of a rota but it has saddened me that for us the lockdown as we new it is now changed. We start with another new normal and I just hope because the children are at home and not having to go in that they will be largely unaffected.
Last week was lovely, I can’t deny I’m nervous for the next with less of Jonny around – I have that sort of feeling I remember from when having a baby and he goes back to work at the end of his paternity leave, it feels daunting!